Calling.

Calling

Yesterday, I want to post about the vocation week, but couldn't do so, as I am too tired. For this week is this exam week for my school, SKPKII.. and I am on duty as the Pengawas Peperiksaan for year two pupils. During the Music test, I bet the kids will finish up their paper in between 20-30 minutes. I was right. They were so active and like to talk. I need to manage them so that they won't be a distraction towards other class. I managed to hold their attention on me by singing some songs and doing games. They were so cute, even the loud boy also cute in my eyes, as they were just like my sister, Clare. I miss Clare right now. 

As I sang and played with them, I also need to control their behaviour, as there will always be two or three boys that like to caught others attention, and won't listen to my order. It's tiring but I am happy. As they were so adorable young kids who eager to learn something. :)

Today is holiday, Wesak Day, wishing Happy Wesak Day to you you you :)

Calling.. I remember my fren said, what you do right now is a calling too, in terms of vocation, aren't you think that way? That's the thing that always in my mind whenever I said that I am tired after trying so many things and still can't accomplished what I had wish for. Yes I think that way too. I am alert of my calling as a teacher since the year of 2008, as I got the news from my Mom, I had succeed in my interview, and will be having my five years and half training to be a teacher in that far far away from home. Deep in my heart saying, God choose me to be in this profession. Until today, I am so grateful for it.

Still, as I am tired and start to give up, I need someone to remind me, as a refreshment after a long tiring days of trying to be a better teacher. So, my friend played an important role as the reminder in my life. Thank you God for sending me such a precious friend. :)

Vocation week.. minggu panggilan.. Someone share to all the parishioners of St.Peter last Sunday, a fine looking seminarian dalam tahun ketujuh, share about his vocation, how he managed to say yes to his calling and stay still in his studies to be a priest. I am touched by his word, thanks God as I really need to hear it. He is indeed a provider, as He will always provide things that one need. 

The young seminarian said, God calling is for someone to be happy. Panggilan Tuhan adalah panggilan kegembiraan. Dia tidak pernah beri roh ketakutan melainkan roh kekuatan, dan setiap orang ada panggilan dalam hidup masing-masing, dan panggilan itu adalah panggilan kegembiraan. 

He also said that, he never thought to be a priest when he grow up, but as God plan is always beautiful. His vocation makes him happy, to serve God and others. 

I am a teacher, and I am grateful as I choose this in the first place. I had choices in my life, I can make a decision to choose either to be a teacher or not. I choose to be a teacher. I finish up my studies and now I am here, my first school. 

Thank you for everything for everything as I am happy to be a teacher. 
(areminderformyself, eveninmyhardestsituation)

pieces of me throughout my years in far far away from home

Honestly, there's ups and downs, back and forth in my life, there's always a hard decision to make, situation that needs a bright understanding, and failure with a positive self motivation. Nothing is easy, and nothing is permanently. As I am learning from time to times, despite of all the hardship, God never leave me, as in my weakest place, I found myself turning to Him. As I reflect on myself, all the situation of mine, that I need to deal, the feeling that I need to manage, problems that I need to solve, slowly will be solved. There is a saying that.. mostly people turn to God when they having difficulties in life, and maybe it is true.. If you are one of them, it's okay, as I am too. 

God is always waiting, and if in your hardest situation you need God, go to Him. Tell God all your worries, as He is listening. In prayer, you will find peace for all your worries, you pray because you believe in God, that everything will be just fine as He will always give the best, have faith in that. I am grateful, as I know God sends my family and friends as the helper of my life. I can do all the things that I say I can't with the help of prayer and blessing from God, I am not perfect, it's okay as I have a perfect God. :)