OCTOBER..

Dear Notebook..

Lots of thing happened for the past month.. and Thanks God I survived with His grace I managed to stand on my knees again.

Happiness, Joy, Sadness, Tears, Laugh.. come and fade in one day.. Things change in just one day.

I wish and hope things will get better, I pray may tomorrow things will change, and sometimes it don't change, it goes like it need to be.. not what I want to be.. still God always right on time as in my less expect moment I received His blessing. He answered my prayers in His own time, as His thoughts higher than mine. Thank You Father.

I am more to anger when I had problem.. I become emotional, I cried throughout my nights.. I want to burst out my anger, but I have nobody to blame except myself.. Why things happen? Why me? What have I done? Still God never left me alone, He sends me lots of angel to guide me, to calm me, to comfort me.. and most of all to bring me back to Him. Even when I can't love myself, He is there with an open arms to tell He loves me more than anyone I ever knew..

Things happen for a reason.. he came.. and I am thankful for giving me chance to know him.. You are one of my blessing.. like do have it own limit..  When things changed.. it changed like a blink of an eyes.. and now what are we? For I am not yours, and you are not mine. One thing for sure I really really appreciate you as my dearest friend.

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