Pengharapan.

Kaulah Harapanku
Sari Simorangkir

Bukan dengan kekuatanku,

 ku dapat jalani hidupku

tanpa Tuhan yang disampingku

ku tak mampu sendiri

Engkaulah kuatku, yang menopangku

Ku pandang wajahmu dan berseru

Pertolonganku datang dariMu

Peganglah tanganku, jangan lepaskan

Kaulah harapan dalam hidupku

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there's time I want to give up on my hope, my wishes, my dreams, all I had prayed, and prayed, and wait for a sign or an answer from my Heavenly Father, as I didn't seem to receive anything from Him.

I cried, and my heart struck with the question why?

But deep inside of me, there's a voice, keep telling me to have faith!

He will answer you soon. 

Don't give up.

and as I kneel and hold my rosary, I cried, and deep inside of me crying for God's help

I cried so hard as I want Him to give me the answer.

Now. Right Now.
He answered me with wait, not now.
Spiritual experience with God is special and unique.
As I grow up, I learn in times that, God did answer me, I just need to hear from Him with faith, with prayer, with love and patience too.
Everything happens beautifully in His time. 
He has made everything beautiful in His time.
(Pengkhotbah 3.11)

Yes. No. Wait.
He can answer it, in times you will never expect it will be, as it came smoothly, 
maybe after storm, and shine beautifully like the rainbows after rain.
He answered with No, as God knows best. He is protecting you. 
Wait, something worthy need times, as Abraham wait long to receive gift from God, and his waiting is worthy.

Yes. No. Wait

Still, I didn't always get what I want, instead I get what I need.

He knows best. 

God knows what best for you. (Isiah 55:9)

I know, no one can do better than Him, as He is with me all the time.

He knows me, He understand me, He loves me,

as He is my creator, the author of my life,

whom shall I trust, as He is the only one who holds my future.

As I had said before, I didn't receive an answer from Him,

I'm wrong, as His blessing is flowing in me, every second as I breath and live,

as I still can see all the people that I love and care,

I can hear their voices, 

I can respond to them,

that unconditional blessing I receive from my Heavenly Father. 
The answer for my prayer, His unconditional loves is worth more than anything I want.

Thank you FATHER, JESUS and HOLY SPIRIT.
thank you Mother Mary, Saint Josef, all the angels and saints.

ps: sharing from me, and as note for myself in future too.
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i tap on my keyboard so fast and so hard, it just flow smoothly, still the error is still there, i am sorry for the grammatical error.